To Worry or Not to Worry That is the Question.....

       I have a best friend, Jessica, she is a lot like me in many ways but a lot different also...She is smart..So am I (hahah), She is a Brunette (Now :) ) and I am also, She was raised by a strong independent mother...Me Too!!, She don't have any sisters...neither do I. Like I said we are a lot alike, but.....She is skinny..So not me, She has dimples...I wish I did, She is obsessed with clothes...yeah I wear them, She is up to date with fashion, celebrities, all things in the know..I watch barney all day (thanks Jax and Knox), She is OCD...Im ADD, She plans...I do..NOT!, She worries....I need to worry more. Even though we are a lot alike we are very different. She told me the other day that pretty much we are sister born to different (yet the same) mothers.

   So, like I said Jess worries. Jess worries about her clothes, her car, her boyfriend (he works late and often falls asleep driving...YIKES), he job, her family, her mom, her brothers, her future wedding, her online shopping, her phone, her friends (so sweet :) ), her money, her dinner (we often worry about that together), her blog, her twitter and her "furry" Children. Jess is so smart and organized...I am not.. I look up to Jess for thinking ahead and planning and being OCD because she is always prepared. Lately Jess has been worrying a lot about certain things like school and other things. I have been worried about her (no pun intended).

       See the funny thing is when you have compatibility, for example (your spouse), you need someone that is the opposite of you, to balance out your relationship. My husband is the male version of Jess. And I think that is a lot of the reason we get along so well (haha Jess your my friend spouse...weird)...Anyways....I was reading my devotional today (example about how I am....this was Tuesdays devo and I am just now reading it... :)...BUT, enough with my ADD self....

It was about "Worry"

Now....I do worry, but my worries come from procrastination, I am never prepared, I am always late, I always press Snooze until the last possible second, I never plan (unless I have to), I always forget special dates, I am the person who sends belated birthday cards ( a year later) because they sit on my table with full anticipation of being sent...(FYI...I got married May 23rd 2009 and I still have yet to send out about 50 thank you notes...I wrote them when I received gifts...just never sent them) So my worry is brought on by my self. I never think about what needs to be done for the future....I like to think I live in the moment....The thing is I secretly wish I was more like Jess and David (funny: our first ever credit payment had to be due on the 14th David spend $30 on the 7th to have it sent next day to the place that receives the payments so it wouldn't be late...ha ha)  See the thing is there needs to be a happy median about worry.....But we need to get our priorities straight about worry...

Matthew 6:25-34

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

Matthew 6:25-34

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

The things we need to worry about are are not material things...They are Spiritual things. We need to worry more about people and their salvation and being doing what we as Christians are called to do .....

The Great Commission

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Matthew 28:18-20

 

God made everyone different and special and the reason he did this is so there are people in the world like Jessica who plan and are very detailed and people like me who just go with the flow. I thank God everyday for Jessica and David who make me think about the things that I need to do without them I would be lost they are my balance in life (funny how most people only need one...I need two...does that show you how I am haha)

 

 

Ok so I was looking at my blog today and decided its....welll....Blah...here are some pictures to liven it up :)

 

 

David and I at MFUGE: Williamsburg, KY June 2010

 
 

Yeah that's my hubby and his BFF the founder of KFC

My Mommy and Me: May 2010

Daddy J and Mom

My Brother Justin (yea hes a Cop don't mess with me) and My sister in law Raven

Hannah-my niece- her first ever trip to the beach-Lake Michigan/Chicago 2010

jimmy (my older brother) and my sister in law candice

Hannah Rocking the Hannah Montana Wig

Caleb and Hannah being goofy at ChildrensChurch

David and I at Miseltoe Ball 2005 (we werent dating yet...he didn't even dance with me)

Me (shows how ADD I am), Oldest bro Jimmy (in pink) Justin (being serious), and my little cousin Paige (crying baby)

Justin, Me, and Jimmy (Christmas 1991 or 1992) look at those sweaters...they will make a comeback haha

Prom 2006 (Junior Year)

David Prom 2006 (his senior year)

A Blessing

      Around Christmas last year I had some Exciting and Scary news to share with ALL my family and friends.....David and I were expecting a Small, Wrinkly, Beautiful Bundle of Joy....I was ecstatic...Scared but Ecstatic. This was NOT our plans but we knew God was working. We had been "Mary and Joseph" in our church's Christmas program and everyone said that it would be SO funny if we were pregnant....WE WERE! David was heading into his last semester of College, Student Teaching and I was {Suppose to be} heading into my last semester of Nursing School as well. Unfortunately, I had been informed a couple weeks before I found out I was expecting that I had to repeat a class because I had a grade of 74.25 and to move on I needed a 74.5. That was not part of our "Plans" either but who cares.

Our family was so excited; our parents were in heaven they were going to be Grandparents. We talked about symptoms, baby clothes, doctors, cribs, nursery colors and names. I had already planned that I was not going to find out the sex of the baby because the year before I had a friend that had lost a baby at 7 and a half months pregnant and I did not want to have everything planned and then that happen. It was horrible and so sad. So, David and I were always talking about it and we were scared at first then that’s all we talked about!!!

We went and visited family in Chicago the week of the first of January and we already had a baby shower planned for this June for my Chicago Family. I also put it on my phones calendar. (Funny fact later). So, we got home and we were just enjoying the remainder of our Christmas holiday it was January 4th, David was leaving the next week to go to a seminar for his student teaching and would be gone all that next week. Well I got out of the shower and was getting ready and I saw it...I was bleeding. I had an appointment scheduled for the next week but I called the Dr. for a emergency appt. (On Sunday night we were at a friends house and watched Marley and Me, I cried out of pity for the character that Jennifer Aniston plays because she lost her baby, I remember thinking I could not imagine going though that...little did I know) I went to the dr. and she checked me and said that I was ok as long as I wasn’t in "Extreme" pain. The week went on and nothing changed....I was SO SCARED! My mother had not ever experienced this, my mother-in-law had but she had that "extreme" pain so anyways...something felt wrong! Well Thursday the 7th of January it got worse, I cried continuously and I had never been so scared to go to the bathroom! But I never had the “Extreme pain”. I knew then that my "High" of excitement was over. On Friday the 8th I was at a local restaurant and I went to the bath room...I looked down and there it was...My baby...did it look like a baby..no..but I remember thinking I should pick it up and try to revive it...could I do that? I was DEVISTATED! I didn’t think that could ever happen to me. I thought failing a class was enough. I mean I already had to change my plans this wasn’t what we planned to have a child....not only did we not plan to have a child but we also didn't plan to ever loose a child after we changed out "Plans" to accompany that child. I was in a daze! I remember thinking it was a dream. I went the next week for an ultrasound to see if; in medical terms "everything has passed". I went to the Dr. and had the ultrasound expecting them to tell me something that day...nope had to wait a week for the Dr. to tell me.....I remember having these thoughts.....They are going to find a baby, Maybe I had twins and only one passed away, I was never really pregnant, The Dr. is going to look at the ultrasound and be astonished because I actually did not miscarry...Those were my thoughts/dreams....Reality was none of those were true.

Two weeks from the time I "passed" the baby me and my best friend, Jessica went to the Dr. so he could tell me what the ultrasound said. (Remember David was gone that week for orientation) We waited for 3 hours got called back, and the DR. said these words and nothing else....."Looks like your uterus is empty" he then asked me if I needed any birth control and then was out the door. That was how I was told I lost my child....Pride and Joy, Apple of My Eye, My Hopes and Dreams CHILD....I left that office, did not shed a single tear and drove home...Jessica turned to me and said..."I’m glad your not emotional because that was horrible" It was...how does someone say that with no emotion. I knew that was what happened but I did not expect to be told like that.

Weeks went on and I began to heal...I was in a dark place, I was sad, didn’t want to be around anyone, wanted to cry, but I put a smile on my face and took a deep breath. A lot of people would walk by me and say nothing, they would look and smile, hug me and say they were sorry but that was how it was. I remember thinking...God, why me....Why all these horrible things...What have I done to disappoint you?....Then I remember a person from the Bible that had it way worse then me....God gave me this one person...JOB...All these things were happening and me and David were looking away from God and not to God.

I remember that saying, "God don’t put you through more than you can handle" Job had everything taken from him. Satan wanted to tempt Job to choose him over God and to blame God for all that was happening...God had faith in Job and let Satan do horrible things to Job, to prove to Satan that Job would not deny God. His whole family, everything he owned and his health was taken away....Job worshipped God...Satan lost...God won...Job was blessed...he then was given two fold everything that was taken and God blessed him for not denying him in hard times....That is how I needed to be and how I became... I know God has a plan for David and I but it is still hard to see people have babies all around us. It is especially hard when I hear about people having abortions. I think about that all the time, I never can understand how people can have their baby be killed….but that’s another topic for another day…Well yesterday was August 17th, 2010..My due date it was emotional but bitter sweet. One thing that I pray for everyday is that my future children accept Christ and that they will be able to go to heaven when they pass this world…That is one thing I never had to worry about with my “nugget” he/she is already there and they didn’t have to ever go though the heartache of this world. My baby is an angel and I will see he/she one day and even though I wish I could physically hold that baby in my arms I hold it in a even deeper place…My heart. I will never forget that day and I will always be selfish and wish I could have it but I know that the baby is safe and in the best place EVER!!!

This baby was a blessing to David and I, we realized that “Plans” are meant to be broken, material things are just things and they don’t matter, God will give us children whether it be natural, adoption, just spending time with the children around us, God has a plan for us and we are to be flexible and follow God no matter what! We have grown in so many ways and even thought it was devastating it was a blessing. That baby taught us so many things and showed us so many things and I cannot wait to get to heaven and thank him/her for the Blessing it gave us! Below is a poem and verse I found that is so appropriate for this particular situation.

"A Pair of Shoes"

I am wearing a pair of shoes.

They are ugly shoes.

Uncomfortable shoes.

I hate my shoes.

Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.

Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.

Yet, I continue to wear them.

I get funny looks wearing these shoes.

They are looks of sympathy.

I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.

They never talk about my shoes.

To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.

To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.

But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.

I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.

There are many pairs in this world.

Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.

Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.

Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.

No woman deserves to wear these shoes.

Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.

These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.

They have made me who I am.

I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

Author Unknown

I'd have to say my favorite Bible verse for any trial would be:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:28

Don't Judge a Book by Its Cover

Today, While watching Jax and Knox playing, I was reading my Bible study (Journey: A Womans Guide to Intimacy with God) The title was "Seeing What God See's" The scripture quoted was,

"Man does not see what the Lord sees, for man sees what is visible, but the Lord see's the heart"

I Samuel 16:7

The Story that went along with it was about a man who worked at the local Dollar Store who was developmentally disabled. The woman who wrote this talked about how the man had worked at this store for years and was very well known around town and everyone acknowledges him but is distant because they are "scared" of him. This struck me as strange but I completely understand....It happens. The whole point of this whole devotional is about how people view others and how God views others and the thing is God views us different. The way God views us is what is on the inside and the "heart" of the person. People view others skin deep on first glance...I really think that there are people, who do view people more than what is on the outside but the "majority" of the world doesn’t, sadly. But, the way we should view people is WAYYYYY more than skin deep...It’s a lot like seeing a book on a shelf that has a AWSOME cover and you are automatically attracted to that cover but you open the book and there are No words....how disappointing is that? On the other hand there is another book right next to it that has a cover that is puke green and dingy with a bent cover and is half price but you open the book and it is the best story you ever read....That is inner Beauty and that IS how God views us and honestly, that is all that matters!

This whole devotional made me feel really guilty because when I was about 4 years old I went to visit my mother‘s cousin in Wisconsin who is Severely Mentally Disabled, When he was young he had half of his brain removed. He is around 30 and has the mentality of a 3-5 year old. When I walked in the living room Johnny started going spastic he was "Excited" and I FREAKED out I cried for about an hour and I told my mommy, "Mommy, that boy is scary" My aunt tried to get us acquainted and by the end of the weekend we were inseparable. We drew pictures and played. I remember asking my aunt what grade he was in because I was going into 1st grade and he was A lot bigger than me and He couldn't count to ten and I could to 100. She said he was going into kindergarten again. I asked her how he could be so big and go into Kindergarten and he still ware diapers and I had to go to the Big girl bathroom before I went. She patiently responded, "Johnny, will always go to Kindergarten and Johnny will never be able to go to the Big boy potty. I remember the drive home with my mom and I asked her questions about Johnny the whole way home and from that time on I was never scared of Johnny or anyone else that was delayed in any way. It was as if they were just like me and you. I am not saying that I view people the way God does but I have a different way of viewing people. What I want everyone to get out of this is that People come in all different colors, religions, hair styles, and mental levels, but God made us all and made us equal...Do you think that if someone is pretty or rich they are better? I hope not. The thing is the person who isn’t the prettiest or richest is normally a better person because they “normally” know how it feels to be looked down on so they would not do the same to other people…They are better! And remember God sent his son, Jesus to die on the cross for our sins, after living a perfect life free from sin and he did not come as a king but he came to serve as the, LEAST OF THESE, he came as an average person! This Is an awesome example of how we are to be to others…Live like Jesus….

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“You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave---just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

Matthew 20:25-28

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God will never leave us or forsake us

This week has been crazy...I feel like I have gone non stop with no hope to stop. Even tho I have been REALLY busy I count it all blessings. Yesterday, I babysat Jax and Knox and I had a dr. appt so I brought them with me. My wonderful mother came and helped me with them and she is AWSOME! It was so sweet Jax came back with me and when they were wrapping the Blood Pressure cuff around my arm Jax freaked out...He thought they were hurting his "MANNY" it was so sweet it melted my heart! On another note, last night at church our youth minister, John, texted a few youth and asked them to come early. We had a special meeting about a leader in our youth. My husband and I help lead they youth along side a wonderful group of people. Among those people there is a young lady that is college age and she recently announced to some of us that she is pregnant. She is unmarried and the boy friend is not in the picture. Not only is she pregnant but she is 4 months pregnant, she has been keeping it a secret because of fear of what people would think. John announced to the youth that this is what is happening but he also told them that we are to be VERY supportive of her and not to talk about her and treat her as we would want to be treated if placed in that position. I was very proud of how John handled it and he also stressed that he does not agree or teach that it is ok but he did say that if that happened to anyone else we are to treat them with love also. It made me think about the way people view the leaders in life. Leaders are to be perfect in people eyes, really? you think so? The thing is leaders are people just like me and you, leaders are not perfect nor will they ever be! The only perfect leader was Jesus and he acted just like John asked us to act. When we sin and do things Jesus does not teach, does he turn his back on us? does he take his love away from us? does he take is offer of salvation away from us?.....NO HE DOES NOT! The valuable lesson I learned from this is that no matter what the circumstances you are going through in life Jesus never leaves us and he shows us love and support just like John asked us to do!

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake you." So, we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"

Hebrews 13:5-6

Hannah Banana my Niece

Saturday was all about my niece Hannah! She is 8 going on 28 and is full of funny! She started the 3rd grade this year and it was Tax-free-weekend so we went shopping for school clothes and to spend time together. My husband and I have been married for a year and 3 months so in the future we will have small children (not yet) but I was talking to my husband and I told him that I really wanna spoil Hannah while I can! SO I DID!  My sister-in-law dropped Hannah off at 8:30 and we watched some Saturday morning cartoons (I would have loved to watch the back of my eyelids, but sacrifice is what it is all about) around 10 I got ready and Hannah wanted me to do her make up...so I did! haha, purple eye shadow and all :) After that David and I brought Hannah to Huddle House and we got a early afternoon breakfast and Hannah loved it! after that My mother, Hannah and I took a trip to the Mall and all together we got Hannah 13 shirts, 2 dresses, 2 shorts, and 1 pair of Pants for guess what......120.00!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you believe that! Two things were 10 dollars and the rest was 5 dollars or less!!! we went to Macy's and Old Navy and they had so many great deals! Hannah insisted we had to go to Maggie Moos, it is a Ice cream parlor. At Maggie moos you order ice cream but the cool thing is that it comes in these combination's like I got Choc to the x-tream and what it is,is a scoop of dark choc ice cream and they mix in choc fudge, m &m's, and choc. sprinkles it was AWESOME! I might have liked it more than Hannah! Hannah had fun but at the end of the day she was pooped! I was so happy to spend time with my beautiful mother and niece I couldnt have asked for a better day!

DATE NIGHT!!!!!!

Friday night, I finally got to spend some time with my Hubby! This makes me so excited! I haven't spent "quality" time with my hubby in about 3 weeks. So, we went to see Dinner for Schmucks, It was wonderful not only was it funny but it was a very inspirational film. Really, it was, I suggest everyone see it. Steve Carell cracks me up in everything he does. Just to let you know my favorite part of going to the movies is watching the previews. David, my hubby, makes fun of me because everytime we go to the movies, after the previews, I tell him I wanna see everyone of them and he is like you say that everytime! BUT I DO! It was a wonderful night and I am so excited I was able to spend time with my HUBBY! he means so much to me and I am so glad we got to spend time together....FINALLY!

Bargins!

So after babysitting yesterday, my hubby, bff Jess, and I all took a road trip 20 miles down the road to have dinner with Jessica's bf (he just got a job working second shift and we never get to see him any more) so we went to one of our favorite places....PEPPERS....its kind of a deli with cold and hot sandwiches and the BOMB CHEESECAKE! Ty only got like 5 minutes of a break so we didn't get to hang out with him long but 5 is better than non, RIGHT? So, after pepper we went to Goodwill, SSSWEEETT deals there. Jess found a cool jean button up shirt for like 2 bucks and david got his favorite kind of Levi's for 4.99 (brand new) and I found some sweet dresses but did not purchase for my self it was all about my beautiful niece Hannah a.k.a Banana who is 8 years of age.. I got her two pair of jeans, look like new and good brands for kids (Justice and Old Navy) and 5 tops more for winter for like 20 bucks...I was stoked! If only I was so lucky...wait a second the jeans I am waring now are a 4.99 pair of Target brand jeans from Goodwill....I love thrift stores and you might go one day and find nothing and the next a goldmine!

Brothers Bond

Yesterday.....yes, I am already a blogging slacker....I babysat Jax and Knox they are so funny! I did not enable Jax addiction yesterday (Choc. Milk) so it was a wonderful day :) like I stated earlier, they are so funny! Jax cracked me up all day! Jax and Know reminds me of two other brothers....MINE!!!!! My older brothers Jimmy (28) and Justin (26). My favorite quote about siblings is a quote that was echoed every day of my life growing up...."The want to Kill each other but will Kill FOR each other any day of the week" Well My brothers were about the same distance in age as Jax and Knox and I wanna tell their mom, Holly, to prepare for A LOT of things to break! haha... My brother Justin, the younger one was more of a free spirit (typical middle child) and he followed Jimmy (who is the PERFECT child bahahha) everywhere he wanted to do everything he was doing and be with him at all times. Jimmy, on the other hand, begged my mom to let him hang out with his friends and not bring Justin along...see.. that never happened so to get back at my mom, Jimmy constantly made fun of and beat him up in front of his friends....don't worry Justin knew what to do...he told JOKES! He was always telling Jimmy's friends embarrassing things and that was just as bad to Jimmy as the beating up was to Justin. The funny thing is to this day if they are in a room to themselves they will talk for hours and they get along great when it is just the two of them they are best friends..I see that in Jax and Knox, in one instant Jax is doing the sweetest things like giving his brother kisses and hugging him and at the same time doing something mean like hitting or punching him...the funny thing is Knox just takes it and smiles at his big brother like he is the coolest thing in the world! With brothers you will have smiles, hugs, tears, blood, bruises but most importantly BOND and a brothers bond is like nothing else!.....Oh, FYI i came along when Jimmy was 7 and Justin was 5 and all that beating Justin recieved from Jimmy, Justin took out on me...to bad for him I learned quick! ;)

Being an Example

So in my earlier post I had explained how Crazy yesterday was well, yesterday morning when the boys were watching cartoons I was attempting to do my morning bible study...Well Jax is so curious he said can I read that book with you? to which I responded, absolutley, I cannot deny that to that sweet little smile and twinkling blue eyes...so he said, "Manny (thats what he calls me, he can't say Mary), can you read me your book?" I said, "Jax, this is my Bible" So I tried to find some bible stories he might know or want to hear about...well there are not pictures so he wasn't thrilled so I got online and tried to look on You Tube for some childrens bible stories I found Jonah but thats when his Choc Milk, (Jax Crack) kicked in...So that was put on hold. So this morning I walked in and had my purse and was looking in my purse and Jax said, "Manny, you getting your Bible"....That was so cool I thought about it and realized that I set an example and he will always know that I have the bible and when he gets older and learns the significance of the Bible he will know that I believed those things and tried teaching him about those...To clarify Jax is raised by very good parents and has a wonderful family who believes in the Lord and he is VERY exposed to that life style so I am not the first to show him the Bible but it does make me feel good that he knows that I have my Bible with me.

WED-NES-DAY

So today is wednesday, YAY! hump day is always fun because its one day closer to the weekend!!! So When I was little, when I was taught how to spell wednesday my MOM (who is ADD) told me to make it thee words...WED, NES, DAY...I thought she was saying WED, NEST, DAY so I spelled wednesday....WEDNESTDAY for so long, its was not funny...:) despite the fact that my mom was ADD and my father was not home much...my brothers and I still made it and have succeeded at many things...spelling not one of them...The reason I was thinking how to spell wednesday is because I am babysitting today and have been all week. When I babysit I attempt to teach them something.See, I work as a Nursing Assistant at the local hospital and I sell Jewelry part time, but my love in life is Children. So my best friends, sister-in-law, has two beautiful little boys and she just moved back to our town from MS so she has not found a babysitter yet. Well they are 2 and a half..that would be Jax and a  6 month old...thats Knox they are so fun and cute...althought yesterday while I was watching them I gave Jax Choc milk...note to self that is babysitting suicide...yesterday my patients were tested and so was my will power...It was nuts! I never thought that Choc. Milk had such effect on children he was like that little squirel in that movie who drinks the coffee and goes NUTS! But despite the fact that it was crazy I still enjoyed it and after that I had a Jewelry party....can we say Crazy to Crazy makes for a LONG night! Earlier I stated that I try to teach them something everyday...well yesterday I was attempting to teach Jax about Jonah and the Whale well that was disrupted because of the effect of the Choc Milk, I left thinking I left them with no new knowledge....well I looked back on the day and realized I did teach him something...that You cant always get what you want...That is a lesson that I have been taught my whole life...My mother is a Hippie/Child of the 70's and so she always quoted or sang her favorite songs from that time period...Rolling Stones.."You can't always get what you want" was constantly sung in our house.. :)